Doubts Even Here Lyrics

Those steps which seem to take a lifetime
When eyes just turn and stare
The day begins, collapsing without warning
You fade from sight, there's nothing there

, calls answered daily
Questions are on your side
Deeply moved, beyond all consolation
You felt the pulse, now hear the cry

In my mind thoughts are becoming clearer
I'm watching every move you make
Counting time spent in observation
A single blow, a false mistake

You revealed to me all that I need to know
now
But please don't turn away
Why can't I talk to you
now?

There's nowhere left to go
Where is this taking (???) 
now

There's nothing more I want
You're all (???)
now

Don't throw our joy away
(???)
now

Memories are all that's left
I need you near to me
NOW

...(Gillian mumbles)
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