Myself Lyrics

I have allways been different I like to be,
     but every time they got something to say to me. 
     One day I had to be, I made a different me,
     but got trouble next day I went to school, you see.
     Two big fellows, which don't much about like in me
     put me in to the games where I don't wanna be.
     In other words no one don't like me there.
     Sometimes I really care. I can't be myself.

     Then one day I didn't meet the chosen one.
     I took a gun, party's just begun.
     Inside of me there still lives a part of me,
     it put me back to the Earth, where I belong to be.
     I get along well with this feeling in my mind.
     If I should say something, I would say nothing
     'cause I'll kiss my only friend what I've got, ever had
     but still I can't, I can't be myself.

     I'm gonna the way I wanna be,
     nobody wanna talk with me, no.

     Do I have to be, or let my feelings free?
     Take a look at me, the way I wanna be.
     I made decisions right, my feelings came from inside,
     I took a drug ride, I felt part of me died.
     My life turned from that good to that very bad.
     There were only me, my pipe 'n' those drugs I had.
     One day I just will be, I'm gonna be real me,
     I think I cannot be, I can't be myself.